Some of you know that for the past few months I have been seeing a therapist. Some people may feel uncomfortable sharing this with people but I think it’s something that should be encouraged and seen as normal. I decided to start therapy for a variety of reasons and had been curious about seeking therapy for quite some time before finally taking the plunge. I started in March. With our engagement imminent I thought it a perfect time to gain some clear perspective and work on myself before committing to one man for the rest of my life. At 27 years old I am an adult (weird!) but know that I still have a lot of learning and growing to do. As my therapist puts it at this age most people still think and act selfishly with a “me” perspective and it can be a difficult transition to change that to a “we” way of thinking which is essential in a successful marriage. She says this is the reason a lot of marriages fail. You can not be selfish and be in a happy marriage – there needs to be give and take. Some people I think just are not capable of this way of thinking. It doesn’t make them bad people but it also means they aren’t exactly marriage material. In our last session we talked a lot about my relationships outside of mine with Matt which got me thinking. For example I like to spend time by myself sometimes and with my friends without Matt there. Does that make me selfish?? When I asked my therapist this she said that spending time away from Matt and having friends and support outside of our relationship is healthy (yay!) and that you should not be so dependent on your partner that you depend on only them for emotional support and companionship. This is called being codependent and a bit needy. I know that feeling because I have been there in past relationships. It’s important to me especially with Matt being a police officer and having a crazy work schedule to have support from family and friends. I am lucky to have a group of amazing women in my life who I am close with. I wish we all lived in the same neighborhood or down the hall from each other like in college but I know they are all just a phone call, text, gchat, or FB message away. In addition to my family and friends I am happy that I now have my therapist to talk to as well and I HIGHLY recommend it to everyone whether you are going through a major life change (like getting married!), just need someone to talk to, or just want to get to know yourself better in general. This is someone I go and talk to once a week who helps me interpret my own feelings and helps me gain perspective so that I can better understand myself and the people in my life including my fiancé. Since being in therapy I feel that I have a better sense of how what I say and do effects people. It’s an ongoing process and I have times when I wonder why I bother going but I know that it’s good for me and I know that I’m all the better for it (and so is my relationship). I want to be the best person I can be for myself and for my (soon to be) marriage. It makes me so happy to know and feel how committed Matt and I are to each other and I feel proud of myself that I am putting in the work to improve myself so I can be the kind of partner he deserves. No one is perfect and no relationship is perfect but I know that if both people are committed and willing to put in the work and act and think as a “we” then you have a chance to make it. 🙂 Ok now I sound like my therapist….
I started reading this book which my therapist recommended and Matt will be reading it after me (he happily agreed to! part of the many reasons I adore him). It’s called Committed by Elizabeth Gilbert. I am only 40 pages in but already hooked and sad the book isn’t longer. It’s by the author of Eat,Pray, Love. The book is all about marriage and her journey to come to terms with getting married again after a terrible divorce and her interviews with women all over the world from all different cultures to figure out what makes marriages work. I have a feeling I will be recommending this to everyone whether you are married, in a relationship, or even thinking about getting married someday.
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